Whirlwind of Inactivity

Really, it has been. I know it sounds funny but that totally describes the last eight months of our lives...but this too will change soon.

So, I think I'm seeing a definite pattern in our lives here. Here is the short of it. Things are still changing, but for the better. We still need patience and all of your prayers...

We did finish the adoption/foster classes, while waiting for our license we realized we financially aren't prepare at the moment to bring kids into our family, so we are waiting, AGAIN. But slowly I'm realizing that it has to be in God's time, not mine. I see that a few short years ago we had a desire to adopt, and that desire has not left. We moved to Kentucky for seminary and he ended up not being able to attend due to calendar conflicts and finances. Tony tried to find a new job in Louisville after the economy took a nose dive in '08 but didn't find anything, so when the opportunity came up to go back to CT, he thought he was doing the right thing by taking a management job there. We are seeing now that that was probably not God's Plan but one of our own making. Since we've come back we don't feel like we belong here...kind of out of sync, bad timing if you will. We had been given some advice after we were in KY for a year, 'pray about it, but stay there and wait, it will work. We were sure that was God's Plan when we saw the timing of this move, you'll be fine. Stay and work it out.' Really wish we had listened.

So, the past month and a half, my mind has been playing tricks on me. When Tony and I are talking about going to a particular restaurant or store here in town, sometimes my mind visualizes that place in Louisville and I start thinking of driving, but not the streets here in CT but the ones in KY! Weird! I am beginning to feel a desire to be there, not here...that desire is what happened when we moved to KY the first time. We are feeling a pull/draw back, and we would not be upset with that change either!

So one Monday afternoon, about a week and a half ago, while I was sleeping off a migraine, Tony went on line, as usual lately, to look for a job. He did his usual search here in CT, didn't find anything different so he decided to search elsewhere...Tampa, near our son Austin, places in NC and Louisville, 'just for ha-ha's'. Well he applied for a job at a big tire retail company looking for management jobs in Louisville. He told me when I woke up. I said okay, let's see what God does with that one.

That Tuesday morning he called me from work to tell me he had just come off the phone with the hiring manager of that company he applied to, the guy, his name sounded familiar to both of us, was interest in him, he told him to send a resume and he'd get back to him. Tony sent him his resume that night and heard back from him the next day and told him to give him a call when Tony gets to Louisville for vacation, July 31-August 3!

Details, the manager is a member of a mega-church in Louisville, the company is not open on Sundays, there are 13 new stores under construction right now and each store employs at least 12 people. This guy is a real christian, Tony has had to work in at Monro anywhere from 1-3 Sundays a month which really crushes family time, and Tony shoulders almost the entire store, employing 4...and in CT's dying economy, he also shoulders the wrath of upper management of the chain which blames the manager, not the economy. No wonder the guy is losing weight and looks like he's 60 instead of his age!

We are seeing this as a positive change for us, and if this is the Plan that God has in store for us, we welcome it! Maybe we will be in a position to bring home a child or children in the foreseeable future? If that is really what God is going to do for us, we welcome that too! But I'm learning not to push my wants and desires on God, but to wait for Him to provide...so we feel like we're 'in sync' again!

Happy Mothers Day!!! Has It Been That Long...Really??

Happy Mothers Day to all you mothers that read my blog! I pray that your day was filled with love from your blessings!! My oldest son spent the day with Tony and I, and that hasn't happened in forever! My middle son, Austin, moved to Florida a week ago and that broke my heart. He surprised me with a beautiful bouquet of flowers he sent yesterday...I cried like a baby, but I'm better now. I miss him terribly but I am so happy that he is happy...that did my heart good. My baby called me and talked with me today...I miss him so much too. All in all, I had a good day!

Wow, it's been just about 2 months since I blogged last. We officially graduated our foster/adoption classes on May 3rd. Tony has his interview this Tuesday, and we are waiting for one more reference letter and our physicals to be sent into our licensing worker and then we are done. Soon to be licensed...finally!

We are getting bedrooms ready and such and will be in touch with another worker tomorrow. On top of being licensed domestically I still have a heart to adopt internationally. Hopefully I will find out if this license can be transferred to int'l...we'll see.

Well, I am getting tired, I think I'll get to bed so I can start bright and early on the rooms...still have lots to do before placement! Happy Mothers Day again!!!

Home Study Begins...

Well, we were able to get into a class and have had two classes so far. We had our social worker do a walk through and small interview on Tuesday afternoon and we were told that so far everything looks good. Things are still up in the air with the twins, but we feel like we are making head-way.

I really need to get children into this house, I am spending WAY too much time on facebook/farmville! It's fun, but I know I'd be happier with kids in this house with me! :)

We had company last Sunday, my oldest son and his friend and her 3 boys. Well Maddie was beside herself with happiness and excitement...she was so sad when they left, so I know she will love having kids in here with us all the time. What a great dog she is :)

Well, I just thought I'd pop in and let you all know what is going on here, in case you were wondering. Please pray with us for our future plans, adoption classes and everything that entails. We have a lot of planning coming up and this will all be challenging. Pray for clear direction for us and that we know what steps to take...thanks!

Well it has been quite a while and believe it or not, I'm still here. There have been many changes in my family and as well as other RR families. I am so excited that several of my friend have gone and brought their newest additions home, and I am extremely excited that one family has changed their minds and they are now in country visiting their new son, Nathan! It has been easier for us, over time, to face the fact that we have not been able to get our girls. We have not given up, we have talked about it til there was nothing more to say.

Since the economy is not helping us in any way to provide financially for a homestudy or any other obligation toward our adoption, I decided to become a licensed daycare provider in my home and any/all money I make goes directly to adoption funding. That is if there is a call for more daycare providers...we'll see.

We are also moving ahead to become license by the state to foster/adopt. We both feel that we are going to take steps, even baby steps, to get this going. My heart breaks for them, and any child that we could conceivably adopt, that they aren't home here with us and that precious time is being wasted.

Lets see...things that happened in two and a half months. Thanksgiving: had a nice time visiting with family. December 20th: picked up Cale from the airport for Christmas vacation. Had a wonderful time with him home...I miss having my children home. January: SuperBowl, and then had to put my wonderful black beauty bunny, Middie, to sleep...suddenly. That was crushing. Then I realized that time, precious time, is passing right before our eyes.

We are praying for God's timing in these plans. Our classes begin next Tuesday evening. Please pray with us that everything works out, I think I have a better shot at being licensed as a daycare provider at the same time we are going through our training classes.

Well, I'm heading to bed hopefully with wonderful dreams of filling our home with children again. Have a wonderful night, and please pray with us.